What To Do

Wed, 09 May 2012 02:34:29 -0400

Everything was so good at school. He liked me and I liked him. Still like him. Now that were three hours apart, I don’t know what to do. We both know that distance is a problem. I like him so much though. I’ve never had a connection with a guy like this before. I’m afraid he’s losing the feelings he had for me. We talk every day… over text. Should I call him some time? I want to go see him, but I’m only available on Mother’s Day. Funny how it works out that way. The last time I texted him was four hours ago. Why am I so worried? Why do I care so much? Why can’t I just let things fall in to place? Why do I have to be like this? I’m just scared that he could be it and he doesn’t feel that way. We are so compatible though. I can’t be sad when I’m around him. I always make him laugh. We can talk for hours. We have the same morals and values. I’m hurting for no reason. He makes me feel better about myself.

I’ve never had any regrets but I regret not realizing what could have been sooner. I wish he had said something and that I had moved on from the asshole I was with before faster. It’s not that I’m tired of waiting, which I am, but I finally let go and let life take its course and when I finally found someone good, we were separated. Someone who makes me laugh and smile. Who I can’t be angry or sad around or at. Who can tell me like it is and I still don’t get mad but I accept it. I just need advice. I don’t know what to do and I don’t know if I should keep trying. Maybe I need to just stop questioning it and go with it. We were friends first. Really really good friends. He knows a lot of my secrets that a lot of people don’t. One of the first guys that I trust that much.

It’s like I fall for a good guy and then it ends. It sucks. I just don’t know what to do.

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What To Do